Thinking of shutting down my blog.
This blog has barely been used in the last couple years. Before that it was a pretty lackluster effort, just serving as a place for me to jot down things for google to find. Theoretically I think of something every couple weeks that I want to write a few paragraphs about, that would theoretically only take half an hour, and would theoretically find a small but consistent and perhaps growing audience.
But that never happens. I just can’t get myself to write. Maybe I’m sick of all the opinions and voices already out there. Maybe I don’t see myself as someone who can commit to writting down an idea, because it always might change the next day. Maybe I just don’t have time.
The thing is, I love blogs, and the creation and writing culture that has developed in the second half of this decade. I subscribe to a lot of things out there and ingest them daily. Technical writing, thougths about life, art, politics. There are good people out there writing good stuff. I used to want to be someone who participated in that culture — who put his thoughts and ideas out there and gained the respect and attention of other people whom I respect.
I used to love creating. I put a lot of energy into my documentary for a couple years, but never figured out what I wanted to do with it, and never had the time or resources to tie it all together. I worked on Lyceum for a couple year, and it was a positive and constructive part of my career, but at the same time I was never able to get it anywhere near its full potential. Perhaps I’ve become burned out on creation, ironically at the same time as the rest of the world accepted it as a cultural norm and expectation (in a beautiful and powerful way).
What are your thoughts, dear reader? Who’s out there reading this, and why are you subscribed to my blog? Should I blog here more, about technology, media, and culture, like I thought I would when I started it in 2004? Should I shut it down, pour my energy into Twitter, and start a Tumblr? Should I go live in a hut in the woods with nothing but a yoga mat and a 3G iPad?
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